Today marks 6 months after "Little" Charlie was born... I remember that day as if it was yesterday. It was a day filled with much joy and sadness. We think of "Little" Charlie often as our lives have moved forward... our definition of "normal" has changed as we are a family of four, not three. We are a family that has suffered loss but has been given the privilege of seeing our son born against all odds and with such strength and grace of God that it has given us a new view of life here and after.
I have meant to write often but it is still difficult to find the right words and today was particularly hard.
Hannah, our daughter, has continued to be a source of strength and joy. She speaks of our Guardian Angel often and with a smile of peace. I will share with you a story during our spring break skiing, Hannah and I took a day to ski together, at the top of the mountain Hannah looked at me and said, "Mommy we are so close to Heaven I can feel "Little" Charlie with us right now, " so we sat down in the snow and just spent time talking with him and sharing our memories. Hannah will also let me know that when she has tough days, "Little" Charlie will be hanging out with her instead of playing with Great-Grandma. As adults we talk about the perspective through the eyes of a child - it is never more appreciated as during this time, a child that is able to look at faith without the barriers of life. I learn much from her.
Charlie and I have our moments, Mother's Day was tough as Mother's Day last year was when we found out we were pregnant - not to mention it was Mother's Day and I was missing one of the reasons why I was a mother. Father's Day was much of the same.
We also have our moments of profound gratitude and joy... to our son, who inspired us to be more than we what we were, our daughter who reminds us of the gift of being parents, to our family and friends who have continued to support us through prayer and just listening.
I do apologize for not reaching out earlier and thanking everyone... it felt too much like closure.
So on this day we remember our son and baby brother as a gift, one that we will continue to treasure.
Thank you again - all of our love,
~The Deebs
Every good and perfect gift is from above... James 1:17
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